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Patience: First Steps

January 18, 2012 — Leave a comment

“But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” Romans 8:25 (NIV)

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Eli took his first steps during the Christmas holiday. We were visiting Chase’s grandparents and it was so exciting watching him take those steps. Now it is almost a month later and he is just not interested in walking. He will take a few steps now and then but for the most part he will only walk if we are holding his hands or if he is using his walker toy that he can push. I know that as soon as he starts walking all the time that things will be that much more eventful in our home, but I still look forward to the day. Most of this morning we worked on walking, he took several steps alone, and did it a few times. I think the he is gradually becoming more interested, so I am sure that it is only a matter of time.

Thinking about all the fun milestones Eli has reached and how I had to wait for him to accomplish each one when he was ready is a reminder to be patient, all things come together at the right time. He crawled when he was ready and I know that he will walk when he is ready also. Even though I know that, I am still impatient as I wait, I just can’t wait to see him walking on his own! So I guess I just need to have a little patience because he will walk before I know it!

 

“I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:4 (NIV)

“Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?” Luke 12:25 (NIV)

I believe that we all have specific struggles that are harder for ourselves than they might be for other people. Certain things are just not a struggle for some people and I think that we all have certain struggles so that it causes us to lean on God more, trust Him and have faith. As many of you know from earlier blog posts I struggle with anxiety/worry. I believe this is my hurdle that I am supposed to over come with God’s help. To be honest there are some days or weeks that are great, it feels like it isn’t even work. But then there are other days when it feels like I am right back at the beginning before I ever even realized this was my struggle, having anxiety and worrying over everything. I pray pretty much every day that God will take this struggle away and heal me of it. I keep praying and waiting. Last night though God brought something to my attention. Before He will heal me of this I first have to realize that I have to give everything to God and believe in His power, authority and plan for my life. See, here was my problem… when there would be something that I would start to worry about my husband would tell me to pray about it and my response would be… of course I’ll pray, but it may not be in God’s plan. What I kept telling myself was that I would pray about the situation but it didn’t mean that the horrible wasn’t still God’s plan. I realized last night that deep down I was never truly letting it go and giving it to Him. I was almost afraid that if I did then that would mean the bad would have to happen, almost like He would test me instantly of my faith by making the worst occur. I know this is not how He works, I know that because I put my faith in Him does not mean that the worst will automatically happen to test my faith, yet for some reason I was telling myself it was. This is what it came down to last night when God was opening my eyes… I can not change anything by worrying or having anxiety, I am only hurting myself. When I give my fears to Him and truly give them up then He will give me peace and the strength to get through anything that comes my way. Good and bad will happen, that is just part of life, but when I live in peace and faith in God then I will be able to face any circumstance head on. And most important (for me)… God will not make my worst nightmares come true once I give it all to Him, He loves me beyond understanding so if something bad happens He will carry me through!