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I am four weeks away from meeting my second child! It’s an amazing feeling knowing that we are so close, especially since this was a very long journey. With both of our boys we were not the lucky ones to conceive quickly. The first time around it took us seven months to get pregnant, while that is certainly not long compared to some people’s journeys it definitely is longer than we expected for being young and healthy. Little did we know that I had Lupus and it was playing a factor into me getting pregnant. This time around we were aware that it might take a while. But, I will say even though I thought it would take a while I did not expect it being a two-year wait.

Maternity_11I had weird symptoms for about four years off and on, but nothing that would tie anything together for the doctors to think, hmmm… maybe it’s Lupus. After my oldest was born I had a rough recovery and then around the time he was eight months old all the symptoms I had previously hit at once and more. By the time he was a year and a half I was diagnosed, finally. Truthfully, I was just glad to finally have a name, a thing, a reason for everything. I could finally know what I was working with. Getting any diagnosis is scary, especially one like Lupus since it is so mysterious and can attack any part of your body. It’s hard to predict and hard to treat. But, God gave me a peace from the beginning. My story is from Him, He has everything in control and Lupus is just part of my story and I have come to terms with that. He has plans for me!

Since I was young, one of the first things that the doctor asked was if I wanted to have anymore children. There was no question that I did, we had always talked about wanting to have a large family. But, it was going to have to wait… for the time being. Lupus patients can have safe pregnancies and healthy babies, but the best thing to do is first get it under control before putting your body through the stress of pregnancy. So that meant that I spent the next year working with the doctor to get everything controlled and to a point that I could get pregnant. That was hard, because by then in our ideal world we would have already been trying for another baby. Being told yes, but not right now is very trying…

After a year we finally got the okay from the doctor, everything looked good and we could try for our second child! Yay! And then came the next year… I honestly thought, oh it will take a while, but probably not longer than it took the last time. Well, it took exactly a year before we were pregnant. Since it was such a long wait I truthfully was in shock when I had a positive pregnancy test! You wait that long and eventually you start to think of it as a distant future thing, when it finally meets your present it’s so exciting you can’t believe it.

Fast forward a few months and I am sitting here, my oldest will be four next month and my youngest will be born within the next four weeks. It was definitely not the plan we had envisioned for our family, we had always pictured a two to three-year age gap. But, God has a much better, more beautiful plans than we can make for ourselves. Will we get to have four kids like we always imagined? I don’t know, and at first that saddened me. But now, I know that we will be given the number of children that God had planned for us from the beginning. If that means two, three or four it doesn’t matter, because whatever His plans are for me I am thankful! I am thankful to be called Mom and thankful for the two amazing little boys that God has blessed me with already.

Prayer Requests

June 9, 2011 — Leave a comment

“but God has surely listened and has heard my prayer.” Psalm 66:19 (NIV) 

“Grow flowers of gratitude in the soil of prayer.” Terri Guillemets

We all have a million things on our plates and that seems to never change. Our prayer lives are constantly filled with new requests. A prayer gets answered and then something else pops up to add to our list. Thankfully our God loves to hear from us and wants us to give him our concerns. He actually wants to hear me ramble on about what is on my mind. Amazing! I can be rather long-winded sometimes, if there is something that is really bugging me I can talk about it for a while and the wonderful thing is, He will listen to every word! I am still trying my best not to make my prayer time a constant list. I want my time with God to be more than the list, I am striving to make my time with Him filled with praise and worship to Him as well. It is definitely something that I am having to be conscious of when praying because it is very easy to get on auto pilot and go back to what I was used to doing and have always done. It really is an amazing change now that I have started to do this though. When I spend my time praising Him after sharing my concerns with Him I have found that to be truly peaceful, the concerns I just shared with Him are not on my mind anymore. It’s awesome how He does that! Please feel free to share your prayer requests with me, there are many things that are on my prayer list but I thought that I would share a few with you:

Both my dad and brother-in-law are in need of jobs.

My husbands grandma had a fall and is now trying to take it easy and reduce stress.

My sister-in-law will be induced a week from today and we are all ready to meet that sweet little boy!

“Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.” Colossians 4:2 (NIV)

“Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!” Psalm 66:20 (NIV)

Do you ever feel like your prayers are being unanswered? I know that I have felt that way many times. Last night while sorting the laundry I was talking to God about this among other things. Then it hit me, what is my prayer life? When I thought about that more I realized that currently it looks a little something like this… my list of prayer requests, a few “thank you” prayers
and then the rest of the time is either back to requests unanswered or me complaining and getting frustrated that they are unanswered. I know I can not be the only one who has had a prayer life like this at some point?

Well last night when I realized that this is what my time spent with God has looked like lately things came together. No wonder I haven’t felt like my prayers were being answered… all I am doing is listing off a “to do” list followed by complaining and only a few words of thanks. This is not supposed to be how prayer lives are. I mean in all honesty would any of us moms feel appreciated, loved and valued if our children treated us like this? We are His children and for some reason I have allowed myself to treat my time with Him exactly how I would not want to be treated.

So last night I made a decision. Yes it is okay to give God your prayer requests, and yes give thanks for answered prayers. But, instead of complaining, I am going to spend my time believing that He will answer my prayers and spend the rest of my prayer time in thanksgiving and worship, truly being in awe of who He is. Who knows, maybe God was just waiting for me to realize that I was being selfish in my time with Him, maybe all He wanted was for me to worship Him and thank Him.

“If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” Matthew 21:22 (NIV)

“May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us— yes, establish the work of our hands.” Psalm 90:17 (NIV)

Daily prayer for our children is one of the best things that we can do as mothers. We can teach them and prepare them for their futures, but prayer will be the most impacting of all. I started praying for my son while I was pregnant. You can’t start to early. I believe we should be praying for all aspects of our children’s lives. What kind of sibling they will be, the kind of heart they will have, their skills and passions in life, their friends they will make, even their future spouses (yes this one is hard to think about when they are in the womb, but don’t you want a family that all loves each other and gets along with everyone that marries into your family? I first heard about praying for future spouses in the book Praying Through Your Pregnancy). If you take to God all these things then what a foundation you are building for your child. I love this verse in Matthew because the key is not just to pray and that’s it. No, the key to it all is believing, faith. If we ask for something yet do not believe that He can do it why would He? We must believe. Now the last verse, Psalm 90:17 I picked as a prayer for my son. Praying Scripture over our children is so important. This verse to me is important because I am asking His favor on my son but also favor and guidance for what he will do with his life, his work. There are many more verses I have used in praying for my son, this was just one I wanted to share today.  The power of this world is so strong, there is only so much we as moms can do. But, the power of prayer is much stronger! What will your prayers for your children be?

“On the day the Lord gave the Amorites over to Israel, Joshua said to the Lord in the presence of Israel: “Sun, stand still over Gibeon, and you, moon, over the Valley of Aijalon.” So the sun stood still, and the moon stopped, till the nation avenged itself ont its enemies, as it is written in the Book of Jashar. The sun stopped in the middle of the sky and delayed going down about a full day.” Joshua 10:12-13 (NIV)

 

This week at church Steven Furtick the pastor of Elevation Church in Charlotte, NC preached. He spoke about his book Sun Stand Still. What an amazing sermon it is! What I got most out of the sermon was that if we believe what we are dreaming of is to big for God, then we are insulting Him! Nothing is to big for our God. The reason that whatever it is that you are needing has not happened is you haven’t asked. Where is the faith? This verse is an example to us, all that it takes is simple faith and what we ask can be done. God knows what it is we are wanting to ask Him, but we must have the faith to just tell Him what it is, what we want our sun stand still moment to be. I don’t know what it is that you need to give to God in faith, but you do. Whatever it is He is waiting for you to do something amazing. Don’t worry or fret over what people will say or because what God has in store for you is a huge never accomplished task. Whatever it is that He has in store for you will be done because He planned it for you. Take a leap of faith and truly tell God what it is you need.