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I am not patient. But lately I am finding that God is teaching me this very difficult lesson. There are so many dreams I have for myself and our family that I truly believe are dreams instilled in me from God. Sometimes those things just don’t happen overnight. In fact, that is usually the case! With the world of instant gratification the idea of waiting is unthinkable! Patience, who has time for that? I’ll just zap my food in the microwave and my “baked lasagna” will be ready in less than 3 minutes! Why on Earth would I actually bake my lasagna in the oven for half an hour? Patience! Ha! Do we even know what the world actually means?

Dictionary.com defines patience as the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. An ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay.

Go ahead and make an entire meal from the microwave! Why wait an hour?

Go ahead and make an entire meal from the microwave! Why wait an hour?

I’m pretty sure that our microwave zapping, instant streaming, world in our hands by the touch of an iPhone generation doesn’t have much of a chance! And I am right there with the rest of the population. If my iPhone is taking a hair too long to upload a page I’m annoyed, don’t even get me started when there are three commercials on Hulu instead of just one! Speaking of commercials, my child doesn’t even know what they are! We don’t have cable. Instead we bought Netflix and Hulu, made our lives cheaper and no commercials! The first time he experienced the world of commercials he was at his Aunt’s house and the Mickey Mouse Club House was rudely interrupted by a commercial. He energetically let out “I want more! More Mickey!” This continued until the show came back on. Little did we know getting rid of traditional cable would make my child impatient! It wasn’t our intention, I promise!

I’m not sure about your family, but we like to dream big! Chase and I will be driving down the road and one or both of us will start dreaming of having more children, when we can take a big Europe vacation, update our kitchen, get a second car, Chase’s businesses grow even larger and I write full-time. Our list of dreams go on and on. Here is what I am learning, rather slowly, these things might actually be our future but they won’t come easy and they won’t come with the push of a button. Sometimes we have to patiently wait where we are, work hard and enjoy the blessings of our current circumstances because as long as we are following God’s path, the blessings are sure to follow! This is something that I am having to remind myself of more often than not. I see what we are working towards, the steps we are taking and the amazing benefits of our sacrifices to get where we are wanting to go. But I still struggle with the microwave mentality. Can’t it just happen now? I’m trying daily to overcome this awful mindset because I know that when you are so focused on what you want someday, you miss out on the amazing of today! And I don’t want to miss out on the blessings of my here and now!

About a year ago I created The Original 30 before 30 list. Through the year I second guessed some of the items that I had on my list for one reason or another. I had put several items on about going green and I really wanted to focus less on the things that interested me at the time and more on goals, plans and things for the future. I also mentioned having two more kids. With my Lupus there is just no telling. God might give us two more children or He might decide that we are meant to only have the beautiful baby we already have. I am not putting a magic number on our family anymore, we will be given the family that we were meant to have!

I know some of you might be saying that once I finalized my list there is no changing it. That was how I felt at first. Then I decided that it’s my list, filled with things that I want to do… so I can make whatever changes to it that I want because it’s for me in the first place. I hope you enjoy my newly refurbished 30 before 30 list!

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1. Grow my hair out to my waist
2. Get my family tattoo
3. Finish my novel
4. Participate every year in the “Walk to end Lupus Now” event
5. Get Lasik eye surgery
6. Take a baking/cake class
7. Start/get involved with a ministry to teach people to transition to a green life
8. Paint our kitchen cabinets
9. Be debt FREE!
10. Plant a vegetable garden
11. Finally go skiing
12. Create my own pie recipe
13. Hang pictures from Chase’s documentary
14. Go on a family vacation to California
15. Read 30 books
17. Go parasailing
18. Pay for a strangers meal at a restaurant
19. Go on a train ride as a family
20. See a movie at the drive-in (I seriously have never done this)
21. Find my favorite brand of all natural make up
22. Try a really fancy bottle of wine
23. Go on a trip out of the country
24. Go to a dinner show
25. Take a spontaneous family day trip to new places in our home state
26. Finally decorate our bedroom
27. Finish scrapbook (you seriously have no idea how long this has taken me!)
28. Actually start and complete a knitting project
29. Watch and stay awake for the entire movie, Stand by me (I have attempted and failed twice)
30. Play Christmas carols for a family sing along on the piano