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I am four weeks away from meeting my second child! It’s an amazing feeling knowing that we are so close, especially since this was a very long journey. With both of our boys we were not the lucky ones to conceive quickly. The first time around it took us seven months to get pregnant, while that is certainly not long compared to some people’s journeys it definitely is longer than we expected for being young and healthy. Little did we know that I had Lupus and it was playing a factor into me getting pregnant. This time around we were aware that it might take a while. But, I will say even though I thought it would take a while I did not expect it being a two-year wait.

Maternity_11I had weird symptoms for about four years off and on, but nothing that would tie anything together for the doctors to think, hmmm… maybe it’s Lupus. After my oldest was born I had a rough recovery and then around the time he was eight months old all the symptoms I had previously hit at once and more. By the time he was a year and a half I was diagnosed, finally. Truthfully, I was just glad to finally have a name, a thing, a reason for everything. I could finally know what I was working with. Getting any diagnosis is scary, especially one like Lupus since it is so mysterious and can attack any part of your body. It’s hard to predict and hard to treat. But, God gave me a peace from the beginning. My story is from Him, He has everything in control and Lupus is just part of my story and I have come to terms with that. He has plans for me!

Since I was young, one of the first things that the doctor asked was if I wanted to have anymore children. There was no question that I did, we had always talked about wanting to have a large family. But, it was going to have to wait… for the time being. Lupus patients can have safe pregnancies and healthy babies, but the best thing to do is first get it under control before putting your body through the stress of pregnancy. So that meant that I spent the next year working with the doctor to get everything controlled and to a point that I could get pregnant. That was hard, because by then in our ideal world we would have already been trying for another baby. Being told yes, but not right now is very trying…

After a year we finally got the okay from the doctor, everything looked good and we could try for our second child! Yay! And then came the next year… I honestly thought, oh it will take a while, but probably not longer than it took the last time. Well, it took exactly a year before we were pregnant. Since it was such a long wait I truthfully was in shock when I had a positive pregnancy test! You wait that long and eventually you start to think of it as a distant future thing, when it finally meets your present it’s so exciting you can’t believe it.

Fast forward a few months and I am sitting here, my oldest will be four next month and my youngest will be born within the next four weeks. It was definitely not the plan we had envisioned for our family, we had always pictured a two to three-year age gap. But, God has a much better, more beautiful plans than we can make for ourselves. Will we get to have four kids like we always imagined? I don’t know, and at first that saddened me. But now, I know that we will be given the number of children that God had planned for us from the beginning. If that means two, three or four it doesn’t matter, because whatever His plans are for me I am thankful! I am thankful to be called Mom and thankful for the two amazing little boys that God has blessed me with already.

The Year of Pie

January 24, 2014 — Leave a comment

I absolutely love baking pies! And it goes without saying that I absolutely love eating pie!

Think about it…

Pie is just plain awesome! It brings a sense of comfort, and a comfy home feeling.

What is with all the cupcake love these days? Yes, I love a good red velvet cupcake, but it certainly doesn’t bring the nostalgia of a homemade pie! Am I right?

Look out world, I'm baking some pie!

Look out world, I’m baking some pie!

Ever since I can remember I was the kid that watched the cooking channels for all the baking shows. Besides making me crave what they were making, it would get my creative wheels turning. From then on I have had this insane desire to be an incredible baker.

I have tried my hand at baking the cool decorative cakes and cupcakes. While they turn out yummy (most of the time), they don’t always turn out pretty. Not to mention the immense frustration I get from my lack of skill with cake decorating. My kitchen ends up destroyed… flour everywhere, not a single pan clean in the kitchen and a lopsided cake that was definitely prettier in my head than on my plate.

But pie, ahhh that is another story. Last night I was creating a new recipe for my sister’s birthday and let me tell you I was loving every minute of it. Don’t get me wrong, I have had my failed attempts at recipes. But that is part of getting better, you learn from experience. I just feel like I am in my element when I work with pies. Oh, did I mention the pie that I made was a mix between an Oreo pie and a french silk? I’m thinking of calling it Oreo silk, or silky Oreo…

Get ready 2014, I’m baking lots of pies this year!

As many of you know, my family no longer does Christmas cards. We make a Christmas video each year and I just love this tradition! It is something that we look forward to making every year.

Merry Christmas!

‘Tis the Season

November 29, 2013 — Leave a comment

Thanksgiving might be over, but why do we have to wait an entire year just to reflect on the things that we are thankful for? I know that I may not always remember, but I try every Thursday to post something I am thankful for, you might have seen me use #ThankfulThursday on occasion. I want to exhibit a spirit of gratitude all year-long instead of just waiting for the season to come around. So even though it’s the day after Thanksgiving, here are a few things that I am thankful.

Coffee mugs that put a smile on my face every morning

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My child and his love for all things Star Wars

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Finally knowing why my hands do this…

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Seeing the joy in my child’s eyes when he met Mickey Mouse

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Growing up with an amazing family… 

And finding super awesome old pictures of your childhood, that I am sure they will be so grateful I posted! :) 

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Having married my high school sweetheart and getting to walk through life with the most kind, patient and loving person by my side

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For having a husband who wants to play super heroes with our child. 

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For that moment when my son saw the ocean for the first time

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What The Future Holds

October 7, 2013 — Leave a comment

Apparently Mars will be colonized. Seriously! In 2023 the colonists will leave with a one way tickets to Mars. Wow! My heart races as I type those words. Colonize Mars. I am certain that if I cried the last time I flew I would probably be hysterical or passed out flying through space. Ugh! That is something I have zero desire to do! I love a good adventure, in fact I am a nomad at heart. But, a one way ticket to another planet… no thanks!

blog pictureWe have all watched movie after movie of Earth colonizing other planets. It’s now not just a possibility but a reality! This is just crazy! My child is going to grow up in a world where Pluto doesn’t know whether it is a planet and people are living on Mars. WHAT? It’s a totally different world than what I grew up in. Everything will be at his fingertips, and there will be an entire population making their own world far beyond what was a possibility when I was a child. Hashtags that document life events, Facebook that has become the new family photo album, whatever question you might have answered with the tiny phone in your pocket. I have no idea what his world will look like by the time 2023 approaches and people are launching into space headed towards their new lives.

Our world is rapidly changing and what was once my world will probably look more like the dark ages to him. I can see it now,

“Mom, you know you only have to think my name and your phone will dial it. You’re making this harder than it has to be.”

“Well sweetie in my day we actually had to dial on a touch screen phone.”

“What is dialing?”

I know, I am exaggerating a little. But, the world is ever-changing and when my son is my age he will probably be having the same revolutionizing thoughts that I am having…What will the world look like in the future? What kind of world will my kids grow up in?

It’s probably safe to say that I am not the first parent or the first generation to think that the world is changing faster than I can keep up. And I am sure that I won’t be the last to feel this way.